End and Beginning

11-13-2024

Oh boy do I have a lot to talk about! The most important is.. the end of my time as a college student is rapidly arriving. Tomorrow I start observations at my local hospitals ER, which marks the end of my semester. After that it's just a few papers to write before Dec. I genuinely never thought I'd make it this far but here I am :). I'm insanely nervous about tomorrow but nevertheless, excited at the same time. Nervous about being in the ER and seeing something really nasty.. being extremely squeamish I hope I don't die LOL.

Work and school stuff aside I've been heavily thinking about creative stuff again.. and I have a few ideas in my head. I wanna start with another video soon, I'm just trying to find the right topic to ramble about. The Metal Slader Glory video was SO much fun and received a lot of really positive feedback so I definitely want to do another. I think I wore my inspirations for that video a lil too on my sleeve.. so trying to find a balance and style of my own is proving hard! It's difficult putting videos together like this, I think that goes under the radar for most people how difficult it can be. I'm definitely not the most media literate so I always fear when talking about a piece I'll just sound stupid but.. there is one thing that is kind of pushing me forward as of late..

I keep getting recommended videos and such saying "make bad art". Which sounds insane at face value, why make something bad? HOWEVER I'm totally there for it and it's really starting to help me push past the idea of "I'll sound stupid" or "It will be bad" because like.. fuck it. It's art, it's MY art. I should make what I want, how I want. All art has merit, all art is important. So I'm just going to make the things I want and even if they end up not great well.. at least I will have made my art.

Another thing I'm wanting to do extremely bad is.. make a game. I've been brainstorming, writing stuff down and trying to figure stuff out for it. I want it to be a gameboy game! Using GB Studio! There is just something about the medium and the gameboy that absolutely speaks to me. I think I can make something really amazing if I give myself the time and learn everything I need to. I have infinite ideas for stories and it's about time I actually start trying to do something with them. The current idea is heavily inspired by a few anime, and I've written down a rough draft of the story and characters. Really what I need to do is start working on achieving some pixel art and learning GB Studio itself. It's gonna be a long project and probably won't happen for a while but let it be known I'm starting to dabble and push myself with it. If you know any good resources PLEASE let me know :3.

The website here has also been redone! I'm insanely happy with it's vibe and early net style. I'm sure it'll grow and change even more with time but V2 here is making me very happy. I'm falling in love with the more indie web ideals. Owning our content, acting responsible online, making art for arts sake, etc. It's all really great and honestly, every single person out there should have their own website!!

Anyway thats it.. significant post on my life and stuff. Hope you enjoyed. And oh yeah.. should definitely make bad art. Make that thing you always wanted, even if it sucks. Do it.